What's going thru your head right now??

Rusty wrote:

I guess I should have made it clear that what I wrote up there was NOT meant as a kind of reproach that you killed that "poor little critter".
I'm not some kind of screwed-up New Age "peace & love & harmony blah blah" sort of person, and I do think that certain creatures existing on this planet are quite expendable.
I just know what it feels like to experience this kind of deeply-rooted uncontrollable fear of something, so it was simply a feeble attempt on my part to try and alleviate your roach phobia, that's all :S


It was not a reproach
that you killed the roach
The critter is gone
and it's useless to moan
;p

Hahah yeah I didn't think you were, and don't worry.
And awh thanks, at least you somewhat understand my ridiculous fear.

Oh and thanks for the poem, hehe.

Rusty wrote:

I think I've once seen what might have been a roach (it looked kinda funny :S) but it was abroad as far as I remember
And hey, you're more than welcome

Lucky!

freak wrote:

I think I'm gonna stop my medication...

freak wrote:

No, not really Suzy. My meds make me sick, tired, weak and fat. I can't even drive. I just can't stand it anymore.... I just can't...

Awh. You should do what you think is best for you - it's your body and your choice. All the best.

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I can't stop worrying. I can't sleep at night. Everything is getting out of control and influencing each other and I just feel like crying and giving up. First and foremost I'm stressing about my twin sister in hospital and because of that I can't concentrate at school, where I spend the day worrying about her and looking forward to visiting her. In the evening when I get home from the hospital, depending on how she is, I usually feel worse and so my concentration is further shot. I have barely studied all week and I have mid course exams starting on Thursday, so I'm stressing about those. If I lose my rankings I'm basically ****ed for the entire year. And I know I shouldn't be so selfish, thinking about myself/ exams so much but I can't help it, and when I try to focus on my sister I feel even worse...
Sigh, anyway, I guess it's fairly obvious why I won't be around here much in the next couple of weeks.

Anysound wrote:

I can't stop worrying. I can't sleep at night. Everything is getting out of control and influencing each other and I just feel like crying and giving up. First and foremost I'm stressing about my twin sister in hospital and because of that I can't concentrate at school, where I spend the day worrying about her and looking forward to visiting her. In the evening when I get home from the hospital, depending on how she is, I usually feel worse and so my concentration is further shot. I have barely studied all week and I have mid course exams starting on Thursday, so I'm stressing about those. If I lose my rankings I'm basically ****ed for the entire year. And I know I shouldn't be so selfish, thinking about myself/ exams so much but I can't help it, and when I try to focus on my sister I feel even worse...
Sigh, anyway, I guess it's fairly obvious why I won't be around here much in the next couple of weeks.

Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that what happened to your sis? Don't push yourself so hard, not being able to concentrate is normal when you're going through sth like this, and you're not selfish for caring about exams, I know how it feels because i'm going through a difficult situation with my little cousin and she's in hospital too. I've kinda lost my concentration lately but i've just tried to stay focused on studies, I'm sure you're doing the best you can to help. I hope she gets better soon. And take care of yourself too, everything is going to be okay you'll see

Just tasted Vegemite... I'm not sure I like it

freak wrote:

I think I'm gonna stop my medication...

Hey freak! May I ask you: what medication do you have? I think for what? Becouse I'm now 6months without them...and I was taking it about 1 year. (I had a depression and stuff that belong to it). I stop taking medication becouse it's everything been so worse and bad, I had so dark thoughts more and more, etc...So at the beginning was so hard. I didn't sleep at night, I have times that I wanna take medication back but when I remember how I feel, I just make a decision and sayed stop, I will gonna be okay without them. So here I am. I feel better and I sleep better. Oh now it's 2 months that I'm taking a homeopath medicine...this is also helps me to that I'm sleeping at night.
Maybe I'm wrong and you don't have depression or something like that, but I just must to tell this.
I hope you will be fine...you know: never give up!

Anysound wrote:

I can't stop worrying. I can't sleep at night. Everything is getting out of control and influencing each other and I just feel like crying and giving up. First and foremost I'm stressing about my twin sister in hospital and because of that I can't concentrate at school, where I spend the day worrying about her and looking forward to visiting her. In the evening when I get home from the hospital, depending on how she is, I usually feel worse and so my concentration is further shot. I have barely studied all week and I have mid course exams starting on Thursday, so I'm stressing about those. If I lose my rankings I'm basically ****ed for the entire year. And I know I shouldn't be so selfish, thinking about myself/ exams so much but I can't help it, and when I try to focus on my sister I feel even worse...
Sigh, anyway, I guess it's fairly obvious why I won't be around here much in the next couple of weeks.

Take it easy I think you are not selfish... this is normal if you have exams you must study. I don't know whats wrong with your sister, I hope she will be okay...
You say that you feel worse when you focus on her...what if you just call her few times, you don't have to go to the hospital maybe? And don't forget...when you in stress -> go out, do what you like... Stress just throw away. But yeah It's normal to be in stress when you have situation like it's yours. But we must to try....don't be so in stress.

--
So me...on my mind right now: I am ashamed, becouse my English its ...I hope it's understanding.

kinna wrote:

freak wrote:

I think I'm gonna stop my medication...

Hey freak! May I ask you: what medication do you have? I think for what? Becouse I'm now 6months without them...and I was taking it about 1 year. (I had a depression and stuff that belong to it). I stop taking medication becouse it's everything been so worse and bad, I had so dark thoughts more and more, etc...So at the beginning was so hard. I didn't sleep at night, I have times that I wanna take medication back but when I remember how I feel, I just make a decision and sayed stop, I will gonna be okay without them. So here I am. I feel better and I sleep better. Oh now it's 2 months that I'm taking a homeopath medicine...this is also helps me to that I'm sleeping at night.
Maybe I'm wrong and you don't have depression or something like that, but I just must to tell this.
I hope you will be fine...you know: never give up!

Aww thank you, you're so sweet. I have a bipolar disorder, and I'm suffering from depression for years. I have a bad reaction to all the meds we've tried. I'm feeling worse and worse each day, really down. So yeah I understand totally what you've been through

Anysound wrote:

Awh. You should do what you think is best for you - it's your body and your choice. All the best.

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I can't stop worrying. I can't sleep at night. Everything is getting out of control and influencing each other and I just feel like crying and giving up. First and foremost I'm stressing about my twin sister in hospital and because of that I can't concentrate at school, where I spend the day worrying about her and looking forward to visiting her. In the evening when I get home from the hospital, depending on how she is, I usually feel worse and so my concentration is further shot. I have barely studied all week and I have mid course exams starting on Thursday, so I'm stressing about those. If I lose my rankings I'm basically ****ed for the entire year. And I know I shouldn't be so selfish, thinking about myself/ exams so much but I can't help it, and when I try to focus on my sister I feel even worse...
Sigh, anyway, I guess it's fairly obvious why I won't be around here much in the next couple of weeks.

Aww Elena I'm sure things will get better soon and you're not selfish sweetie, not at all. lots lots of love from France

[quote="Anysound"]

Rusty wrote:

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I can't stop worrying. I can't sleep at night. Everything is getting out of control and influencing each other and I just feel like crying and giving up. First and foremost I'm stressing about my twin sister in hospital and because of that I can't concentrate at school, where I spend the day worrying about her and looking forward to visiting her. In the evening when I get home from the hospital, depending on how she is, I usually feel worse and so my concentration is further shot. I have barely studied all week and I have mid course exams starting on Thursday, so I'm stressing about those. If I lose my rankings I'm basically ****ed for the entire year. And I know I shouldn't be so selfish, thinking about myself/ exams so much but I can't help it, and when I try to focus on my sister I feel even worse...
Sigh, anyway, I guess it's fairly obvious why I won't be around here much in the next couple of weeks.

Elenita. I wish I could do something, anything, to make this shit stop happening to you. I wish I could say something that would take some pressure off your shoulders. But in all of my feeble power, I can't. I all I can do is tell you how much you mean to me, in more ways than you will ever know. you have honestly saved my life more than once. I know you never fully accept my compliments, but you are the strongest, smartest, and most interesting girl I have ever met. Amy will get better, I can feel it. Things will go back to normal, only your family will be closer and stronger. You are my hero. I probably couldn't function if that happened to me. But you continue to be the amazing creature you are. School is only school, rankings mean nothing in real life. You dont even have an ounce of selfish blood in your body. Stop beating yourself up. We all love you. Things will be okay.
Forever,
Bekka

i need a friend.
.. like wilfred ... much better!!!!

Bun has a monkey on his back - but it won't stop him from tracking cats.

I've still got a headache.

Anysound wrote:

And awh thanks, at least you somewhat understand my ridiculous fear.

Oh and thanks for the poem, hehe.

Yes I do, and not just "somewhat" but very well ;p

and any tiiime

Anysound wrote:

I can't stop worrying. I can't sleep at night. Everything is getting out of control and influencing each other and I just feel like crying and giving up. First and foremost I'm stressing about my twin sister in hospital and because of that I can't concentrate at school, where I spend the day worrying about her and looking forward to visiting her. In the evening when I get home from the hospital, depending on how she is, I usually feel worse and so my concentration is further shot. I have barely studied all week and I have mid course exams starting on Thursday, so I'm stressing about those. If I lose my rankings I'm basically ****ed for the entire year. And I know I shouldn't be so selfish, thinking about myself/ exams so much but I can't help it, and when I try to focus on my sister I feel even worse...
Sigh, anyway, I guess it's fairly obvious why I won't be around here much in the next couple of weeks.

Oww Elenaaa It's too heartbreaking to read something like this and not be able to help
I hope your sister is going to be alright and I'm sure you will do FINE with your school work and exams and everything
Hang in there habibte, WE ALL LOVE YOUUU

Here's something cute and goofy to cheer you up (this always brings a smile to my face, heh)
I hope you like cats
CLICKYYY

I've just had an awful discussion with my parents because they found out that i'm planning to drop out college and they don't want to understand that i'm a good for nothing and we don't share the same point of view about the world and society and work and all that shit.

Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job.

I can't stand Zoey Deschanel.

CherryWaves wrote:

I can't stand Zoey Deschanel.

You're not alone.

Thinkhappythoughts67 wrote:

I've just had an awful discussion with my parents because they found out that i'm planning to drop out college and they don't want to understand that i'm a good for nothing and we don't share the same point of view about the world and society and work and all that shit.

Hey,
I'm sure they want the best for you. It's tough out there and they may understand more than you think.

One of my sons left his last semester of college for a married woman in another state, now a year & 1/2 later still no job.

The other son joined the Air Force after doing well in college but never finished. After a year and 1/2 he is still at the Air Force college learning a language. It is so rare, his job use will be extremely limited.

The 3rd boy wants to GED and join the coast guard/Navy at 17 ( he is not a good swimmer ).

Where they end up is anyone's guess, but I stress for their happiness, and hope for the best.

We helped them from the moment they were born. Now they make their own choices. It is hard to let our children take their own steps.

Plus, being a young adult lasts such a short time. A bad decision can change the course of your whole life, and take a toll that may never be recovered.

But you will find your way. Be strong and never give up on yourself. And never let anyone tell you, "you are a good for nothing", even yourself. You are important to the one above and he will guide your path.

It is hard to see 10, 20, or even 30 years down the road and be accurate.

My life is not what I ever imagined, and I am sure yours will be different too.

But enjoy what comes and be ready for anything. Peace.

Suzy wrote:

One of my sons left his last semester of college for a married woman in another state, now a year & 1/2 later still no job.

He sounds like a total legend, tbh.

Kitty wrote:

CherryWaves wrote:

I can't stand Zoey Deschanel.

You're not alone.

THANK YOU!

I knew I couldn't be the only one.

Suzy wrote:

Hey,
I'm sure they want the best for you. It's tough out there and they may understand more than you think.

One of my sons left his last semester of college for a married woman in another state, now a year & 1/2 later still no job.

The other son joined the Air Force after doing well in college but never finished. After a year and 1/2 he is still at the Air Force college learning a language. It is so rare, his job use will be extremely limited.

The 3rd boy wants to GED and join the coast guard/Navy at 17 ( he is not a good swimmer ).

Where they end up is anyone's guess, but I stress for their happiness, and hope for the best.

We helped them from the moment they were born. Now they make their own choices. It is hard to let our children take their own steps.

Plus, being a young adult lasts such a short time. A bad decision can change the course of your whole life, and take a toll that may never be recovered.

But you will find your way. Be strong and never give up on yourself. And never let anyone tell you, "you are a good for nothing", even yourself. You are important to the one above and he will guide your path.

It is hard to see 10, 20, or even 30 years down the road and be accurate.

My life is not what I ever imagined, and I am sure yours will be different too.

But enjoy what comes and be ready for anything. Peace.

Oh Thanks for your words I know you must see everything from a different perspective because you are a mom
I know they want the best for me but sometimes they're extremely annoying! But I'll try to see the future in a positive way
PS: I was a little pissed off when i wrote that

Thinkhappythoughts67 wrote:

Suzy wrote:

Hey,
I'm sure they want the best for you. It's tough out there and they may understand more than you think.

One of my sons left his last semester of college for a married woman in another state, now a year & 1/2 later still no job.

The other son joined the Air Force after doing well in college but never finished. After a year and 1/2 he is still at the Air Force college learning a language. It is so rare, his job use will be extremely limited.

The 3rd boy wants to GED and join the coast guard/Navy at 17 ( he is not a good swimmer ).

Where they end up is anyone's guess, but I stress for their happiness, and hope for the best.

We helped them from the moment they were born. Now they make their own choices. It is hard to let our children take their own steps.

Plus, being a young adult lasts such a short time. A bad decision can change the course of your whole life, and take a toll that may never be recovered.

But you will find your way. Be strong and never give up on yourself. And never let anyone tell you, "you are a good for nothing", even yourself. You are important to the one above and he will guide your path.

It is hard to see 10, 20, or even 30 years down the road and be accurate.

My life is not what I ever imagined, and I am sure yours will be different too.

But enjoy what comes and be ready for anything. Peace.

Oh Thanks for your words I know you must see everything from a different perspective because you are a mom
I know they want the best for me but sometimes they're extremely annoying! But I'll try to see the future in a positive way
PS: I was a little pissed off when i wrote that

I was once young as well.

omgwtf wrote:

Suzy wrote:

One of my sons left his last semester of college for a married woman in another state, now a year & 1/2 later still no job.

He sounds like a total legend, tbh.

Yeh, her children are the same ages as mine - all three!

Thinkhappythoughts67 wrote:

Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that what happened to your sis? Don't push yourself so hard, not being able to concentrate is normal when you're going through sth like this, and you're not selfish for caring about exams, I know how it feels because i'm going through a difficult situation with my little cousin and she's in hospital too. I've kinda lost my concentration lately but i've just tried to stay focused on studies, I'm sure you're doing the best you can to help. I hope she gets better soon. And take care of yourself too, everything is going to be okay you'll see

Well, one night she was just suddenly (literally out of nowhere) on the ground screaming and crying, in the worst pain she's ever experienced. She couldn't move or barely speak and it was really scary, seeing her in that much pain and having no idea what to do. After many tests and misdiagnoses (and days of her being completely out of it) they finally told us she had pancreatitis and pneumonia. She was treated and now, after almost two weeks, she's out of hospital and is much better (she got discharged yesterday).
Thank you for your well wishes and I'm sorry to hear about your little cousin; seeing all the children in the kids' ward is so sad. They're so little and helpless. I hope she is okay.

freak wrote:

Aww Elena I'm sure things will get better soon and you're not selfish sweetie, not at all. lots lots of love from France

Thank you so much. I hope whatever you do in regards to your medication works out well and that you're offered relief from all that horrible stuff soon. Oh and about the Vegemite... hahah, it is horrible.

kinna wrote:

Take it easy I think you are not selfish... this is normal if you have exams you must study. I don't know whats wrong with your sister, I hope she will be okay...
You say that you feel worse when you focus on her...what if you just call her few times, you don't have to go to the hospital maybe? And don't forget...when you in stress -> go out, do what you like... Stress just throw away. But yeah It's normal to be in stress when you have situation like it's yours. But we must to try....don't be so in stress.

--
So me...on my mind right now: I am ashamed, becouse my English its ...I hope it's understanding.

Thank youuu, you're so nice. I am feeling a bit more grounded since my sister is home and okay; I just have to try and concentrate now. I'm thinking of Wednesday afternoon when all this will be over.

Oh and noo, don't worry about your English - it's fine! Don't be ashamed, I know exactly what you're saying, and in time you'll get better at articulating yourself.

Bekkkka wrote:

Elenita. I wish I could do something, anything, to make this shit stop happening to you. I wish I could say something that would take some pressure off your shoulders. But in all of my feeble power, I can't. I all I can do is tell you how much you mean to me, in more ways than you will ever know. you have honestly saved my life more than once. I know you never fully accept my compliments, but you are the strongest, smartest, and most interesting girl I have ever met. Amy will get better, I can feel it. Things will go back to normal, only your family will be closer and stronger. You are my hero. I probably couldn't function if that happened to me. But you continue to be the amazing creature you are. School is only school, rankings mean nothing in real life. You dont even have an ounce of selfish blood in your body. Stop beating yourself up. We all love you. Things will be okay.
Forever,
Bekka

Awhh, Bekkaaa. ;_; You are so so so sweet. Believe me, even if you don't think you do anything to help, you dooo. Your words mean so much and I'm so lucky to have someone like you in my life. I really don't deserve it. And it's not just your words that help, and I will prove this with a photo / story I will post on my blog on Wednesday after exams. (I know I said I would last week but I've been really busy. )
And you're right, I need to stop focusing on the results of my exam and their worth, and just concentrate on doing my best.
Thank you, again.

Rusty wrote:

Oww Elenaaa It's too heartbreaking to read something like this and not be able to help
I hope your sister is going to be alright and I'm sure you will do FINE with your school work and exams and everything
Hang in there habibte, WE ALL LOVE YOUUU

Here's something cute and goofy to cheer you up (this always brings a smile to my face, heh)
I hope you like cats
CLICKYYY

Thank you, Rusty. She is much better now and I've done 3 of my 8 exams. I know I didn't do my best work, and I just know I could've done better... but the teachers said they'll take that in to account. Still, I want to do my best, you know? :/ I just need to find the focus (and the two weeks of studying I've lost...).

Oh and awhh, that video is lovely. What a clever cat.

Thinkhappythoughts67 wrote:

I've just had an awful discussion with my parents because they found out that i'm planning to drop out college and they don't want to understand that i'm a good for nothing and we don't share the same point of view about the world and society and work and all that shit.

That sucks. I hope they understand it from your point of view soon enough; after all, it's your life and your decision. Oh and you are not a "good for nothing".

Sexhair wrote:

Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job. Please let me get this job.

!! I hope you got/ get it! Good luck!

Oh and a general message to everyone: Thank you so much for your continued and unbridled support of /care for me. It seems no matter where this forum moves or who is here, you're all completely lovely all the time and have the best of advice and understanding. I really don't deserve it, but I'm thankful for it every day and it means a lot to me.

Anysound wrote:

Oh and a general message to everyone: Thank you so much for your continued and unbridled support of /care for me. It seems no matter where this forum moves or who is here, you're all completely lovely all the time and have the best of advice and understanding. I really don't deserve it, but I'm thankful for it every day and it means a lot to me.

Sooo thankful that Amy is better now Does she have lots of follow ups to do? Or was the infirmity a one time thing?
And you deserve every bit of love available in the world

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